Dear World in General

Dear World in General- This is to all of the people that like to look at others and judge. And not to the ones that look at someone and judge and in the same breath say I woulda done the same damn thing! But to the one's that look at someone and say that they are better than that person. The ones that sit here and say that they would NEVER do that SHIT and they DO. The one's that don't know what it's like to walk in another mans shoes. The ones that REFUSE to walk in another mans shoes. This is to the ones that will sit here and look at me or at the bum on the corner or the drunk in the bar or the crackhead on the bus that cares so little who hears that they will cut a deal in front of their mother and God and say that they are less than them. The ones that think having that big ass flat screen is more important than having happy children, that if your children are wearing the flyest kicks and designer jeans that the fact that they look at you and tell you to fuck off at 5 means nothing. This is to the ones that sat on welfare while they could have got a job, to the mothers that go after GOOD men for CHILD SUPPORT when they could get off their fat asses and get a damn job. This is to the ones that look at me like I'm crazy cause I had 4 beautiful babies but you killed the 3 you had in your tummy cause you got drunk and fucked up, literally fucked up. To the women that look at thier children and see a damn paycheck, to the men who look at their children and cant remember which one night stand their mommy is. To the democrats and republicans who cant get along to save the damn country. To the people who support the damn democrats and republicans who cant get along to support the damn country. To the Protesters who dont even know what they are protesting. To the government that takes my rights away and says its to protect me. To the people that agree that the government can take my damn rights away to protect me. To the people that look at a service man and say hes a bad person because he killed someone. To the people that look at a service man and say that he shouldnt have became a serviceman in the first place. To the people of this country who cant get along long enough to figure out what "our" government has done to this country....I say this: WAKE THE FUCK UP!! LOOK IN THE GOD DAMNED MIRROR!! Are you really going to sit here and be freaking sheep to your own ignorance anymore in your own lives and in the world?! Are you really gonna continue to let things slide farther and farther downhill or are gonna start picking up pieces? Up to you I guess as for me Im done being a sheep

Today I realized life sometimes sux...and then u get over it.

I'm my own worst enemy, Ive caused the vast majority of headaches in my life and will most likely continue to. But I'm sick of ignoring it or running from it. Ive made my decisions and the vast majority of them over the past little while have been not the best decisions ever. But there is not a damn thing I can do about it so its time to stop beating myself up over them and time to move on. I didn't bring four kids into this world to reduce them to sleeping on the floor at their grandmothers house because I'm too busy feeling sorry for myself to get off my ass and do something about it. I'm back baby and ready to kick some ass!

Without Stupid people who would make the rest of us feel smart?

Tolerance of the ignorant and stupid is not something I am good at.  I am trying to find a positive spin on it and the only one I can find is that they help keep my ego healthy.  From the Drunken ignorant to the consistently dumb they drive me nuts.  The advent of social networking has made this even worse from their dumb posts about things no one really cares about to comments on news pages that are so obviously uninformed and unresearched it hurts my head to think about, seriously its physically painful.  What is even worse is some of the worst offenders are people that until you added them as a friend on facebook or Twitter you may have found them intelligent so when everyday they post something moronic its like getting slapped in the face.  Of course you  hide their posts thinking this will help but then whenever you seem them in real life you cringe instead of smile because your thinking about the last post you read from them.

And whats worse is the people that you have to be around constantly that are highly dumb.  The people that feel that Jerry Springer is the greatest TV program ever created.  The ones who actually feel that "ain't" is a word and should be used whenever possible.  And what's worse these are the people that have an opinion on everything from race to religion to politics and they voice them without any provocation and you have no choice but to sit and listen or end up in 3 hour long conversation about why we cant just kick the president out of office because we dont like him or why ancient aliens isnt reality its just a tv show you really cant publish a scientific report without facts or proof.  Or my favorite why we cant really go and just kill everyone in the middle east and how that would be very similar to Hitler during World War II, of course comparing them to Hitler will set them off on a tizzy so its best to avoid this. After the 3 hours is over their final answer is always "Well thats just dumb." 

Annnddd then there's their children.  When you think you can take all there is to take of utter stupidity and ignorance you realize that these people actually reproduced and not just once but 4 to 5 times. Each child dumber than the first.  And sadly no its not a lack of application on the child's part and they may have actually been intelligent in the first place unfortunatley after years of living with their moronic parents their IQ's have slowly decayed over time and as we all know you cant replace dead brain cells.  In some cases these children's parents are so dumb CPS has actually come in and removed the children and not for physical abuse or anything just simply because the parent is soo stupid they are clearly incapable of making common sense decisions like putting a coat on your child when its 20 degrees out.  Sadly after a few parenting classes these children are returned to the home to spend the next 18 yrs learning the important things in life like the names of all the wrestlers on WWE or how to apply eyeliner correctly.  They will most likely drop out at 15 after deciding that their afterschool job at McDonalds is all they really ever need be pregnant by 19 and break up with Baby's Daddy within a year of their child's birth.  In the case they are male this will all be similar except he will most likely have multiple babies with multiple women and purposley fail an IQ test miserably so he can get on SSI and not have to pay child support.

Then there are the stupid people that are actually intelligent but constantly under the influence of some sort of intelligence lowering product such as alchohol or weed.  The biggest problem with this type of stupidity is that they think they are actually intelligent while are under the influence and no amount of argument can convince them otherwise. These people will usually want to discuss the first thing that will start and argument such as politics or religion. And maybe sports if there are a bunch of drunk sports fans.  These people usually end up with black eyes or in a drunk tank somewhere as well.  I must make a note here though because these people are only annoying when you are sober, when you are intoxicated as well your just as dumb as they are.  

Anyways the point of this rant is simple I feel 10 times smarter whenever I get on facebook and even with a complete lack of puncuation this post is still more intelligent that 75% of the conversations/facebook posts I have had in the last 30 days!

Going Commision Only....for a bit anyways

Talked to a guy in Liberty Lake and he's looking for someone to help him expand so I think I'm gonna go ahead and do it.  I'm not losing a dime and I can work at home so I need 2 things from my wonderful friends YOUR BUSINESS!! I'll be writing for Allstate and we all know this is company that you can trust and you know me I'm the master of customer service!! If your already with Allstate sign over to me!! The more people the better!! Pass this along!

Dear God

So I am pretty sure I am a good person.  I know I've made mistakes and I have tried very hard to make up for this mistakes.  I've hurt people that I care about and I know that and I have admitted apologized and attoned as  much as possible for these things.  The position my family is in now it is definantly partially my fault as a parent and a wife if my family has issues than I automatically get half the blame.  And I shoulder the other half of the blame.  BUT for JIMINEY CHRISTMAS THIS IS GETTING OLD!! I can't take it much more what the flying hell AM I SUPPOSED TO DO everyday I do what I think is right and at least once a week something goes wrong very wrong.  I have no idea what to do anymore I feel like giving up completely.  I know I shouldnt  but I just really dont know what else to do.

HMM Cause and Effect and People Like You make me just that much stronger!

I was just told the reason it will be difficult for me to find a job is because my credit sucks...hmm lets take a moment and examine this.  I don't have a job therefore I have no money (ok I have a little bit I make a whole whopping $124/week on unemployment) so how exactly should I be paying my bills?  So now you won't give me a job because my credit sucks so now my credit is going to get worse and worse.  I just want to thank you for pointing out this wonderful thing called cause and effect for me.  Now I'd like to point it out to you. I'd also like to see how long your credit stayed good if you weren't making 6 figures sitting on your butt all day finding ways to tell people they suck.  Well whatever bottom line is this bad credit or not I'm a damn good employee and someone smarter than you will hire me and when that happens I'm gonna laugh because by then your gonna be letting go half of the people that have "good credit" but suck at their job!

The power of positive and why I love being me

So after a couple of weeks of wallowing I've kicked it up a notch or 5 and am finally really busting my butt to get things done.  Interview after interview and I'm feeling really good about all of them :)  I honestly cant wait to get back to work!  I think a lot of it has to be attributed to starting to think more positively which is something I'm rather good at.  Getting up and not worrying and having a clear set path helps alot!   I've gotta figure that eventually somethings gotta give and while it's an uphill battle now to get finances back on track I know I can do it, failure isn't even an option!  So I will continue to look for jobs and bust my butt to get my family and our lives back on track as quickly as possible and so far everythings blue skys and rainbows!