Dear God

So I am pretty sure I am a good person.  I know I've made mistakes and I have tried very hard to make up for this mistakes.  I've hurt people that I care about and I know that and I have admitted apologized and attoned as  much as possible for these things.  The position my family is in now it is definantly partially my fault as a parent and a wife if my family has issues than I automatically get half the blame.  And I shoulder the other half of the blame.  BUT for JIMINEY CHRISTMAS THIS IS GETTING OLD!! I can't take it much more what the flying hell AM I SUPPOSED TO DO everyday I do what I think is right and at least once a week something goes wrong very wrong.  I have no idea what to do anymore I feel like giving up completely.  I know I shouldnt  but I just really dont know what else to do.